Remembrance
She and I
Spent the whole summer
Thinking of one another
We knew what would happen
When we saw each other again
Our assumptions were well-founded
It turned out to be the case
That we felt for each other
The strongest form of love
I can hardly remember her
At this point in my life
We had a love that was storied
And as well tragic
We hated and loved each other
In equal proportion
Although, at the outset the hate
Was admiration
Beauty in the temporarily clouded eye
Of the beholder
We were stunned all the time
Neither of us
Was strong enough to hold on
She sabotaged me, and I terrorized her
Our love turned into hate
Our bliss transformed after that
Into a curse that destroyed our lives
And the bubble burst
For some time
Needless to say
For people to love this much
Their own efforts are likely grand
And their own lives perfectly stable
And regenerating
Maybe we were weaker back then
After 9/11
We needed to make sense of the situation
We poured our fluids
Into one another’s pores
We were shaken to the core
She was just becoming a woman
I was a grizzled metic
Although still a young metic
To be sure
That morning we both cried
Although I more than she
Because I knew what it all meant
Clearly there was a message being sent
Clearly she and I would need each other
She had to explain the boonies to me
And I had to explain the madness of
Despite all the various problems which arose later
This was the glorious dawn of our love
And all our words were true
Eventually these would be mirages
Our love became marooned
All alone
In the high deserts of central
Left there by my idiocy and absentmindedness
Butchered there by her conception of
Which, knowing how brilliant she is, has matured by now
I am sure she’s got it right
I am still working on it
Driving home
I listen to her music
I have only somewhat appropriated
The Discourse for my own
Sometimes
It makes me write epic love poems
Sometimes
It makes me want to sleep the day and night away
Sometimes
I give in to it and think about 9/11
And the days and months that followed it